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B i o g r a p h y Erlewine Alanis Morissette (b. June 1, 1974, Ottawa, Canada) was one of the most unlikely stars of the mid-'90s. A former child actress turned dance-pop diva, Morissette transformed herself into a confessional alternative singer/songwriter, in the vein of Liz Phair and Tori Amos. However, she added enough pop sensibility, slight hip-hop flourishes, and marketing savvy to that formula to become a superstar with her third album, Jagged Little Pill. Morissette was born and raised in Ottawa, Canada. In her childhood, she began playing piano and writing songs. At the age of ten, she joined the cast of You Can't Do That on Television, a children's television program. Using money that she earned on the show, Morissette recorded an independent single, "Fate Stay With Me," which was released when she was ten. After leaving the show, she concentrated on a musical career, signing a music publishing contract when she was 14. The publishing contract led to a record deal with MCA Canada. In 1991, she moved to Toronto and released her debut album, Alanis. Alanis was a collection of pop-oriented dance numbers and ballads that was successful in Canada, selling over 100,000 copies, and leading to a Juno Award for Most Promising Female Artist. However, no other country paid any attention to the record. In 1992, she released Now Is the Time, an album that closely resembled her debut. Like its predecessor, it was a success in Canada, even if it sold half of what Alanis did. Following the release of Now Is the Time, Morissette relocated to Los Angeles, where she met Glen Ballard in early 1994. Ballard had previously written Michael Jackson's hit "Man in the Mirror," produced Wilson Phillips' hit debut album, and worked with David Hasselhoff. Despite the duo's mainstream pop pedigree, they decided to pursue an edgier, alternative rock-oriented direction. The result was Jagged Little Pill, which was released on Maverick Records, Madonna's label. On the strength of the single "You Oughta Know," Jagged Little Pill gained attention upon its release in the summer of 1995. Soon, the single received heavy airplay from both alternative radio and MTV, sending the album into the Top Ten and multi-platinum status. The second and third singles from Jagged Little Pill, "Hand in My Pocket" and "All I Really Want," kept the album in the Top Ten. In early 1996, she was nominated for six Grammys. Shortly after the nominations, Morissette released her fourth single, "Ironic," which proved to be her biggest crossover success. Morissette won several Grammy awards in 1996, including Album of the Year and Song of the Year. Her much-anticipated follow-up, Supposed Former Infatuation Junkie, was released in the autumn of 1998. An Unplugged set appeared a year later, and in 2002 Morissette released Under Rug Swept. So-Called Chaos followed in 2004, and one year later she took Jagged Little Pill on the road as an acoustic tour, also released on CD. |
Just click HERE for the Part 1 of Alanis Morissette Lyrics
Fear of Bliss
( Hands clean B-side )
My misery has enjoyed company
And although I have ached
I don't threaten anybody
Sometimes I feel more bigness than I've shared with you
Sometimes I wonder why I quell when I'm not required to
I've tried to be small I've tried to be stunted
I've tried roadblocks and all
My happy endings prevented
Sometimes I feel it's all just too big to be true
I sabotage myself for fear of what my bigness could do
Fear of bliss and fear of joyitude
Fear of bigness (and ensuing solitude?)
I could be golden I could be glowing I could be freedom
But that could be boring
Sometimes I feel this is too scary to be true
I sabotage myself for fear of losing you
This talk of liberation makes me want to go lie down
Under the covers til the terror of the unknown is gone
I could be full I could be thriving I could be shining
Sounds isolating
Sometimes I feel this is too good to be true
I sabotage myself for fear of what my joy could do
( Hands clean B-side )
You're unsure and you're not ready so that must mean I want you
You're unavailable and disinterested and to you I look for comfort
A million times in a million ways I will try to change you
A million months and a million days I'll try to somehow convince you
I have waited for you and adjusted for you and I'm done
I have deferred to you and enabled you and I'm done
You're too young or you're too old or you're simply not inclined
You're asleep or you're withholding be that my cue to crave you
Several times in several ways I'll try to squeeze love from you
Several hours and several ways I'll feast on scraps thrown from you
I have bent for you and I've deprived for you and I'm done
I have depressed for you and contorted for you and I'm done
I have stifled for you and I've compromised for you and I'm done
I have silenced for you and sacrificed for you and I'm done
It won't be long before I am reclaimed
It won't take long and I'll be on path again
It won't be easy for us to disengage
I'm at the end of self deprivation stage
You're afraid of every woman afraid of your inner workings
You cringe at the thought of living under the same roof as me god and everything
A million times and a million ways I've tried to alter to match you
Several times every several days I've tried to uncrush on you
For hearing all my doubts so
selectively and
For continuing my numbing love endlessly.
For helping you and myself: not even considering
For beating myself up and overfunctioning.
To whom do I owe the
biggest apology?
No one’s been crueler than I’ve been to me.
For letting you decide if I indeed was desirable
For myself love being so embarassingly conditional.
And for denying myself to somehow make us compatible
and for trying to fit a rectangle into a ball.
And
To whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one’s been crueler than I’ve been to me.
I'm sorry to myself.
My apologies begin here before everybody else.
I'm sorry to myself.
For treating me worse than I would anybody else.
For blaming myself for your unhappiness
and for my impatience when I was perfect where I was.
Ignoring all the signs that I was not ready,
and expecting myself to be where you wanted me to be.
To whom do I owe the first apology?
No one’s been crueler than I’ve been to me.
And
I’m sorry to myself.
My apologies begin here before everybody else.
I’m sorry to myself.
For treating me worse than I would anybody else.
Well, I wonder which crime is the biggest ?
Forgetting you or forgetting myself...
Had I heeded the wisdom of the latter,
I would’ve naturally loved the former.
For ignoring you: my highest voices.
For smiling when my strife was all too obvious.
For being so disassociated from my body,
and for not letting go when it would’ve been the kindest thing.
To whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one’s been crueler than I’ve been to me.
And
I’m sorry to myself.
My apologies begin here before everybody else
I’m sorry to myself.
For treating me worse than I would anybody else.
I’m sorry to myself.
My apologies begin here before everybody else
I’m sorry to myself.
For treating me worse than I would anybody else.
SisterBlister
( Hands clean B-side )
You and me we're cut from the same cloth
It seems to some we famously get along
But you and me are strangers to each other
Cuz you and me:competitive to the bone
Such tragedy to trample on each other with how much we've endured
With the state this land is in
You and me feel joined by only gender
We are not all for one and one for all
Sister blister we fight to please the brothers
We think their acceptance is how we win
They're happy we're climbing over each other
To beg the club of boys to let us in
You and me estranged from the mother
You and me have felt impotent in our skin
You and me have taken it out on each other
You and me disloyal to the feminine
Such a pity to disavow each other with how far we've come
With how strong we've been
You and me are on this pendulum together
You and me with scarcity still fueling
Sister blister we fight to please the brothers
We think their acceptance is how we win
They're happy we're climbing over each other
To beg the club of boys to let us in
We may not have priorities same
We may not even like each other
We may not be hugely anti-men
But such a cost to dishonor a sister
You and me have made it harder for the other
We forget how hard separatism has been
You and me we can help change their minds together
You and me in alignment until the end
Sister blister we fight to please the brothers
We think their acceptance is how we win
They're happy we're climbing over each other
To beg the club of boys to let us in
( Precious Illusions B-side )
Who
Who am i to be blue
Look at my family and fortune
Look at my friends and my house
Who
Who am i to feel deadend
Who am i to feel spent
Look at my health and my money
And where
Where do i go to feel good
Why do i still look outside me
When clearly i've seen it won't work
Is it my calling to keep on when i'm unable
And is it my job to be selfless extraodinairre
And my generosity has me disabled
By this my sense of duty to offer
And why
Why do i feel so ungrateful
Me who is far beyond survival
Me who see life as an oyster
Is it my calling to keep on when i'm unable
And is it my job to be selfless extraodinairre
And my generosity has me disabled
By this my sense of duty to offer
And how
How dare i rest on my laurels
How dare i ignore an outstreched hand
How dare i ignore a third world country
Is it my calling to keep on when i'm unable
And is it my job to be selfless extraodinairre
And my generosity has me disabled
By this my sense of duty to offer
Who
Who am i to be woo
*** Thanx a lot to Sylvy for this one ***
( Hands clean B-side )
I
had disengaged to avoid being totaled
I would run away and say good riddance, soon enough
I had grown disgusted by your small-minded ceiling
Imagine myself bolting had not been difficult
Soon be my life
Soon be my pace
Soon be my choice of which you'll have no part of
Unprodigial daughter and I’m heading for the west
Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last
I'd invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed
I
hit the ground running, although I know not what toward
I hit the town feeling, forgetting all that came before
I felt primed and ready, once surrounded by the pawns
I felt culture shocked, but dissuaded, I was not
This is my town
This is my voice
This is my taste of which you've have no part of
Unprodigial daughter and I'm heading for the west
Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last
I'd invite you but I’m busy being unoppressed
One day I’ll saddle back and speak of foreign adventures
One day I’ll double back and tell you about these unfettered years
One day I’ll look back and feel something other than relieved
Glad that I left when I did before, I know you, you can't get the best of me
When I’d speak of artistry you would roll your eyes skyward
When I’d speak of spirituality you would label it absurd
When I spoke of possibility you would frown and shake your head
If I had stayed much longer, I’d have surely imploded
These are my words
This is my house
These are my friends of which you've had no part
Unprodigial daughter and I’m heading for the west
Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last
I’d invite you but I’m busy being unoppressed
Unprodigial daughter and I’m heading
for the west
Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last
I’d invite you but I’m busy being unoppressed
Simple
together
You've been my golden best friend
Now with post-demise at hand
Can't go to you for consolation
'Cause we're off limits during this transition
This grief overwhelms me
It burns in my stomach
And I can't stop bumping into things
I thought we'd be simple together
I thought we'd be happy together
Thought we'd be limitless together
I thought we'd be precious together
But I was sadly mistaken
You've been my soulmate and then some
I remembered you the moment i met you
With you I knew god's face was handsome
With you I saw fun and expansion
This loss is numbing me
It pierces my chest
And I can't stop dropping everything
I thought we'd be sexy together
Thought we'd be evolving together
I thought we'd have children together
I thought we'd be family together
But I was sadly mistaken
If I had a bill for all the philosophies I shared
If I had a penny for all the possibilities I presented
If I had a dime for every hand thrown up in the air
My wealth would render this no less severe
I thought we'd be genius together
I thought we'd be healing together
I thought we'd be growing together
Thought we'd be adventurous togheter
But I was sadly mistaken
Thought we'd be exploring together
Thought we'd be inspired together
I thought we'd be flying together
Thought we'd be on fire together
But I was sadly mistaken
*** Thanx a lot to Leticia for this one ***
How to stay paralyzed by fear of abandonment
How to defer to men in solve-able predicaments
How to control someone to be a carbon copy of you
How to have that not work and have them run away from you
How to keep people at arm's length and never get too close
How to mistrust the ones you supposedly love the most
How to pretend you're fine and don't need help from anyone
How to feel worthless unless you're serving or helping someone
I'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
A course of a lifetime you'll never forget
I'll show you how to in eight easy steps
I'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
How to hate women when you're supposed to be a feminist
How to play all pious when you're really a hypocrite
How to hate god when you're a pray-er and a spiritualist
How to sabotage your fantasies by fears of success
I'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
A course of a lifetime you'll never forget
I'll show you how to in eight easy steps
I'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
I've been doing research for years
I've been practicing my ass off
I've been training my whole life for this moment I swear to you
Culminating just to be this well-versed leader before you
I'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
A course of a lifetime you'll never forget
I'll show you how to in eight easy steps
I'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
How to lie to yourself and thereby to everyone else
How to keep smiling when you're thinking of killing yourself
How to numb a la holic to avoid going within
How to stay stuck in blue by blaming them for everything
I'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
A course of a lifetime you'll never forget
I'll show you how to in eight easy steps
I'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
Every time you raise your voice I see the greener grass
Every time you run for cover I see this pasture
Every time we're in a funk I picture a different choice
Anytime we're in a rut, this distant grandeur
My tendency to want to do away feels natural
My urgency to dream of softer places feels understandable but I know
The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately
Every time that I'm confused I think there must be easier ways
Every time our horns are locked I'm towel throwing
Every time we're at a loss we've bolted from difficulty
Anytime we're in stalemate, a final bowing
My tendency to want to hide away feels easier
The immediacy of picturing another place, comforting to go but I know
The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately
We could just walk away and hide our heads in the sand
We could just call it quits only to start all over again, with somebody else
Every time we're stuck in struggle I'm down for the count that day
Every time I dream of quick fix I'm assuaged
Now I know it's hard when it's through and I'm damned if I don't, no quick fix
way
What formerly was treatment silent's now outdated
My tendency to want to run feels unnatural now
The urgency to want to give to you what I want most feels good and I know
The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately
Why no one will help me I'm too dumb I'm too smart
They'll not understand me I'm lonely they'll hate me
There is not enough time It's too hard to help me
God wants me to work no resting no lazy
These excuses how they've served me so well
They've kept me safe they've kept me stuck
They've kept me locked in my own cell
I'm too far from home it takes far too much energy
I cannot afford to, no one will ever see me
These excuses how they've served me so well
They've kept me safe they've kept me stuck
They've kept me locked in my own cell
These excuses how they're so familiar
They've kept me blocked they've kept me small
They've kept me safe inside my shell
Bringing these into the light shakes their foundation and clears my sight
Now my imagination is the only thing that limits the bar and its' rise to the
heights
No one can have it all see I have to, they want me to
I can't let them down I will never be happy
These excuses how they've served me so well
They've kept me safe they've kept me stuck
They've kept me locked in my own cell
These excuses how they're so familiar
They've kept me blocked they've kept me small
They've kept me safe inside my shell
back to track list
Doth I Protest Too Much
I'm not threatened by every pair of legs you watch go by
I don't cringe when you stare at women it's just a thing called guy
I don't notice your sideways glances or where your loyalty lies
I'm secure and out of me it's hard to get a rise
I'm not jealous
I don't get moved by much
I'm not enraged
not insecure as such
not going insane
rational stays in touch
Doth I protest too much
I'm not tortured by how oft you're busy cuz I've got things to do
I'm not disappointed about how you don't miss me cuz I don't need you to
I'm not needy
I don't get clingy much
I am not scared
I'm not afraid as such
I'm not dependent
Rock solid stays in touch
Doth I protest too much
So much energy to prove to you who I can't possibly be
So much energy to prove to you I'm not who you hate for me to be
I'm not saddened and I don't miss you cuz I have moved on too
I'm not concerned about your new lover cuz I've a new lover too
I'm not depressed
I don't get down that much
I'm not despondent
I am not dark as such
I'm never sad
Keep chin up stays in touch
Doth I protest too much
I'm not threatened by every pair of legs you
watch go by
I don't cringe when you stare at women it's just a thing called guy
I don't notice your sideways glances or where your loyalty lies
I'm secure and out of me it's hard to get a rise
I'm not jealous
I don't get moved by much
I'm not enraged
not insecure as such
not going insane
rational stays in touch
Doth I protest too much
I'm not tortured by how oft you're busy cuz I've got things to do
I'm not disappointed about how you don't miss me cuz I don't need you to
I'm not needy
I don't get clingy much
I am not scared
I'm not afraid as such
I'm not dependent
Rock solid stays in touch
Doth I protest too much
So much energy to prove to you who I can't possibly be
So much energy to prove to you I'm not who you hate for me to be
I'm not saddened and I don't miss you cuz I have moved on too
I'm not concerned about your new lover cuz I've a new lover too
I'm not depressed
I don't get down that much
I'm not despondent
I am not dark as such
I'm never sad
Keep chin up stays in touch
Doth I protest too much
We share a culture, same vernacular
Love of physical humor and time spent alone
You with your penchant for spontaneous advents
For sticky unrests be unearthed and then gone
You are a gift renaissance with a wink
With tendencies for conversations that raise bars
You are a sage who is fueled by compassion comes to nooks and crannies as balm
for all scars
You make the knees of my bees weak
Tremble and buckle
You make the knees of my bees weak
You are a spirit that knows of no limit
Who knows of no ceiling, who balks at dead ends
You are a wordsmith who cares for his brothers
Not seduced by illusion or fair weather friends
You make the knees of my bees weak
Tremble and buckle
You make the knees of my bees weak
You are a vision who lives by the signals of stomach and intuition as your guide
You are sliver of god on a platter who walks what he talks
And who cops when he's lied
You make the knees of my bees weak
Tremble and buckle
You make the knees of my bees weak
I wear their face on top of my face
I am the perfect target screen for your blindly-fueled rage
I bear the brunt of your long-buried pain
I don't mind helping you out but I want you to remember my name
It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I may remind you
But I won't take it all on
Past-riddled rage I see the buttons I engage
With my dignity in place I'm all too happy to assuage
It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I may remind you
But I won't take it all on
Lest I find my voice find the strength to stand up to you
Lest I state my limit and take on only what is mine to
We are a team I'm here to help mend and re-seam
All I trigger unknowingly a job I hold in high esteem
It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I may remind you
But I won't take it all on
I'll take only some of it
Deadlines and meetings and contracts all breached
d-days and structure, responsibility
Have to's and need to's, get to's by three
Eleventh hours and upset employees
I want to be naked running through the streets
I want to invite this so-called chaos that you think I dare not be
I want to be weightless flying through the air
I want to drop all these limitations but the shoes upon my feet
Heartburn and headaches and soon-to-be ulcers
Compulsive yearnings non-stop to please others
I want to be naked running through the streets
I want to invite this so-called chaos that you think I dare not be
I want to be weightless flying through the air
I want to drop all these limitations but the shoes upon my feet
All won't be lost if I'm governed by my own innate-ness
The stoplights won't work, I'll get home sound and safe regardless
won't be mayhem if I'm ruled by my own rule-lessness
my fire won't quell and I'll be harm-free and distress-less (trust me)
line-towing and helping, expectations-up-to living
inside-box-obeying, inside-line-coloring
I want to be naked running through the streets
I want to invite this so-called chaos that you think I dare not be
I want to be weightless flying through the air
I want to drop all my limitations but the shoes upon my feet
I want to be naked running through the streets
I want to invite this so-called chaos that you think I dare not be
I want to be weightless flying through the air
I want to drop all these limitations and return to what I was born to be
This Grudge
14 years 30 minutes 15 seconds I've held this grudge
11 songs 4 full journals, thoughts of punishment I've expended
Not in contact not a letter such communication telepathic
you've been vilified, used as fodder, you deserve a piece of every record
But who's it hurting now?
Who's the one that's stuck?
Who's it torturing now, with an antique knot in her stomach
I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old
All this time i've not known how to rest this bygone
I want to be soft and resolved clean of slate and released
I want to forgive for the both of us
Like an abandoned house dusty-covered furniture still intact
If I visit it now, do I simply re-live it somehow gratuitous
But who's still aching now?
Who's tired of her own voice?
Who's it weighing down with no gift from time of said healing
I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old
All this time i've not known how to rest this bygone
I want to be soft and resolved clean of slate and released
I want to forgive for the both of us
Maybe as i cut the cord veils will lift from my eyes
Maybe as i lay this to rest dead weight off my shoulders will rise
Here i sit, much determined ever ill-equipped to draw this curtain
How this has entertained, validated and has served me greatly ever the victim
But who's done whining now?
Who's ready to put down
This load I've carried longer than I had cared to remember
I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old
For the life of me I've not known how to rest this bygone
I want to be soft and resolved clean of slate and released
I want to forgive for the both of us
I won't see my dear friends as much
Male friends especially I'll no longer be in touch
I'll change my hobbies to match yours
I'll stop reading my favorite books
I won't spend all this selfish time alone
I'll cater to you and hang on your every word
I'll be subservient and spineless
I'll lick your boots as empty shell
I'll be opinion-less and silent
I'll be the prettiest appendage to ever lose herself
I'll redefine self-sacrifice
Live my life as apologetic compromise
I know you'd leave if I rocked the boat
I'll be subservient and spineless
I'll lick your boots as empty shell
I'll be opinion-less and silent
I'll be the prettiest appendage to ever lose herself
I feel this, truly proclaimed, will help the curbing of this tendency
I know this sharing of shame will ensure that I won't forget myself so easily
I'll be low maintenance and agreeable
I will not talk about my dreams so much
I'll listen to you for hours, won't need for anything
I'll be subservient and spineless
I'll lick your boots as empty shell
I'll be opinion-less and silent
I'll be the prettiest appendage to ever lose herself
Everything
I can be an asshole of the grandest kind
I can withhold like it's going out of style
I can be the moodiest baby and you've never met anyones
Who is as negative as I am sometimes
I am the wisest woman you've ever met
I am the kindest soul with whom you've connected
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen and you've never met anyone
Who is as positive as I am sometimes
You see everything you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here
I blame everyone else and not my own partaking
My passive aggressive-ness can be devastating
I'm terrified and mistrusting and you've never met anyone
Who is as closed down as I am sometimes
You see everything you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here
What I resist persists and speaks louder than i know
What i resist you love no matter how low or high I go
I am the funniest woman that you've ever known
I am the dullest woman that you've ever known
I'm the most gorgeous woman that you've ever known and you've never met anyone
Who is as everything as I am sometimes
You see everything you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here
*** Thanx a lot to Carie who corrected this one ***
Citizen of
The Planet
I start up in the north
I grow from special seed
I sprinkle it with sensibility
From French and Hungarian snow
I linger in the sprouting
Until my engine's full
Then I move across the sea
To European bliss
To language of poets
As I cut the cord of home
I kiss my mother's mother
Look to the horizon
Wide eyed, new ground
Humbled by my new surroundings
I am a citizen of the planet
My president is Kwan Yin
My frontier is on an airplane
My prisons : homes for rehabilitating
Then I fly back to my nest
I fly back with my nuclear
But everything is different
So I wait
My yearn for home is broadened
Patriotism expanded
By callings from beyond
So I pack my things
Nothing precious
All things sacred
I am a citizen of the planet
My laws are all of attraction
My punishments are consequences
Separating from source the original sin
I am a citizen of the planet
Democracy's kids are sovereign
Where the teachers are the sages
And pedestals fill with every parent
And so the next few years are blurry
The next decade's a flurry
Of smells and tastes unknown
Threads sewn straight through this fabric
Through fields of every color
One culture to another
And I come alive
And I get giddy
And I am taken and globally naturalized
I am a citizen of the planet
From simple roots through high vision
I am guarded by the angels
And my body guides the direction I go in
I am a citizen of the planet
My favorite pastime edge stretching
Besotten with human condition
These ideals are borne from my deepest within
Underneath
Look at us break our bonds in this kitchen
Look at us rallying all our defenses
Look at us waging war in our bedroom
Look at us jumping ship in our dialogues
There is no difference in what we're doing in here
That doesn't show up as bigger symptoms out there
So why spend all our time in dressing our bandages
When we've the ultimate key to the cause right here
Our underneath
Look at us form our cliques in our sandbox
Look at us micro kids with both our hearts blocked
Look at us turned away from all the rough spots
Look at dictatorship on my own block
There is no difference in what we're doing in here
That doesn't show up as bigger symptoms out there
So why spend all our time in dressing our bandages
When we've the ultimate key to the cause right here
Our underneath
How I've spun my wheels with carts before my horse
When shine on the outside springs from the root
Spotlight on these seeds of simpler reasons
This core, born into form, starts in our living room
There is no difference in what we're doing in here
That doesn't show up as bigger symptoms out there
So why spend all our time in dressing our bandages
When we've the ultimate key to the cause right here
Our underneath
Straitjacket
Something so benign for me construed as cruelty
Such a difference between who I am and who you see
Conclusions you come to of me routinely incorrect
I don’t know who you’re talking to with such fucking disrespect
This shit’s making me crazy
The way you nullify what’s in my head
You say one thing do another
And argue that’s not what you did
Your way’s making me mental
How you filter as skewed interpret
I swear you won’t be happy til
I am bound in a straitjacket
Talking with you's like talking to a sieve that can’t hear me
Tou fight me tooth and nail to disavow what’s happening
You're resistance to a mirror I feel screaming from your body
One day i’ll introduce myself and you’ll see you’ve not yet met me
This shit’s making me crazy
The way you nullify what’s in my head
You say one thing do another
And argue that’s not what you did
Your way’s making me mental
How you filter as skewed interpret
I swear you won’t be happy til
I am bound in a straitjacket
Grand dissonance
The strings of my puppet are cut
The end of an era
Your discrediting’s lost my consent
This shit’s making me crazy
The way you nullify what’s in my head
You say one thing do another
And argue that’s not what you did
Your way’s making me mental
How you filter as skewed interpret
I swear you won’t be happy til
I am bound in a straitjacket
Versions of
Violence
Coercing or leaving
Shutting down and punishing
Running from rooms,
Defending withholding, justifying
These versions of violence
Sometimes subtle sometimes clear
And the ones that go unnoticed
Still leave their mark once disappeared
Diagnosing, analyzing
Unsolicited advice
Explaining and controlling
Judging opining and meddling
These versions of violence
Sometimes subtle sometimes clear
And the ones that go unnoticed
Still leave their mark once disappeared
This labeling
This pointing
This sensitive’s unraveling
This sting i’ve been ignoring
I feel it way down way down
These versions of violence
Sometimes subtle sometimes clear
And the ones that go unnoticed
Still leave their mark once disappeared
These versions of violence
Sometimes subtle sometimes clear
And the ones that go unnoticed
Still leave their mark once disappeared
Not as we
Reborn and shivering
Spat out on new terrain
Unsure unconvincing
This faint and shakey hour
Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
I'm barely making sense for now
I'm faking it til i'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time "I as I"
And not as we
Gun shy and quivering
Timid without a hand
Feign brave with steel intent
Little and hardly here
Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
With not much making sense just yet
I'm faking it til i'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time "I as I"
And not as we
Eyes wet toward
Wide open frayed
If god's taking bets
I pray he wants to lose
Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
I'm barely making sense just yet
I'm faking it til i'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again
But this time "I as I"
And not as we
In Praise
of The Vulnerable Man
You are the bravest man I’ve ever met
You unreluctant at treacherous ledge
You are the sexiest man I’ve ever been with
You, never hotter than with armor spent
When you do what you do to provide
How you land in the soft as you fortify
This is in praise of the vulnerable man
Why won’t you lead the rest of your cavalry home
You, with your eyes mix strength with abandon
You with your new kind of heroism
And I bow and I bow down to you
To the grace that it takes to melt on through
This is in praise of the vulnerable man
Why won’t you lead the rest of your cavalry home
This is a thank you for letting me in
Indeed in praise of the vulnerable man
You are the greatest man I’ve ever met
You the stealth setter of new precedents
And I vow and I vow to be true
And I vow and I vow not to take advantage
This is in praise of the vulnerable man
Why won’t you lead the rest of your cavalry home
This is a thank you for letting me in
Indeed in praise of the vulnerable man
Moratorium
I've never been this accountable-less and within
I've never known focuslessness on any form
I've never had this lack of ache for dalliance
To let go, and let god in ways I have never even imagined
I’ve never let my grasp soften; fingers like this
I’ve never been careless otherless like autonomy’s twin
I declare a moratorium on things relationship
I declare a respite from the toils of liaison
I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement
I declare a full time out from all things commitment
Ah to breathe
Stop looking outside
Stop searching in corners of rooms
Not my business or timing
I’ve never known freedom from intertwining
I start again this time for keeps, in my skin I’m residing
I declare a moratorium on things relationship
I declare a respite from the toils of liaison
I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement
I declare a full time out from all things commitment
I declare a moratorium on things relationship
I declare a respite from the toils of liaison
I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement
I declare a full time out from all things commitment
Torch
I miss your smell and your style and your pure abiding way
Miss your approach to life and your body in my bed
Miss your take on anything and the music you would play
Miss cracking up and wrestling and our debriefs at end of day
These are things that I miss
These are not times for the weak of heart
These are the days of raw despondence
I never dreamed I would have to lay down my torch for you like this
I miss your neck and your gait and your sharing what you write
Miss you walking through the front door documentaries in your hand
Miss traveling our traveling and your fun and charming friends
Miss our big sur getaways and to watch you love my dogs
These are things that I miss
These are not times for the weak of heart
These are the days of raw despondence
I never dreamed I would have to lay down my torch for you like this
One step one prayer I soldier on
Simulating moving on
I miss your warmth and the thought of us bringing up our kids
And the part of you that walks with your stick-tied handkerchief
These are things that I miss
These are not times for the weak of heart
These are the days of raw despondence
I never dreamed I would have to lay down my torch for you like this
These are things that I miss
These are not times for the weak of heart
These are the days of raw despondence
I never dreamed I would have to lay down my torch for you like this
Giggling
Again For No Reason
I am driving in my car up highway one
I left L.A. without telling anyone
There were people who needed something from me
But I am sure they’ll get along fine on their own
Oh this state of ecstasy
Nothing but road could ever give to me
This liberty wind in my face
And i’m giggling again for no reason
I am dancing with my friends in elation
We’ve taken adventures to new levels of fun
I can feel the bones are smiling in my body
I can see the meltings of inhibition
Oh this state of ecstasy
Nothing but road could ever give to me
This liberty wind in my face
And I’m giggling again for no reason
I’m reeling jubilation
Triumphant in delight
I am at home in this high five
And I’m smiling for no reason
I am sitting at the set of cali sun
We’ve gotten quiet for its’ last precious seconds
I can feel the salt of the sea on my skin
And we still hear the echoes of abandon
Oh this state of ecstasy
Nothing but net could ever give to me
This liberty wind in my face
And I’m giggling again for no reason
Tapes
"I am someone easy to leave"
"Every easier to forget"
A voice, if inaccurate
Again: "I’m the one they all run from"
Diatribes of clouded sun
Someone help me find the pause button
All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren't my own
Wreaking havoc
"I’m too exhausting to be loved"
"A volatile chemical"
"Best to quarantine and cut off"
All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren't my own
Wreaking havoc
All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren't my own
Wreaking havoc
"I’m but a thorn in your sweet side"
"You are better off without me"
"It’d be best to leave at once"
All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren't my own
Wreaking havoc
Incomplete
One day ill find relief
I’ll be arrived and
I'll be a friend to my friends
Who know how to be friends
One day ill be at peace
I’ll be enlightened and
I'll be married with children
And maybe adopt
One day I will be healed
I will gather my wounds
Forge the end of tragic comedy
I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete
One day, my mind will retreat
And ill know god and ill be constantly one
With her night dusk and day
One day ill be secure
Like the women I see
On their 30th anniversaries
I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete
Ever unfolding
Ever expanding
Ever adventurous and torturous
But never done
One day, I will speak freely
I’ll be less afraid
And measured outside of my poems
And lyrics and art
One day I will be faith-filled
Ill be trusting and spacious authentic
And grounded and whole
I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete
( Live with Ryan Adams )
Ryan :
I was born in 1974
on a calm meticulous street
someplace in the sun
oh the air was sweet
and enough lights sprang sparks
through the window of the room
not as raw to a ridiculous tune
slightly out of key in the mother hour
Ryan & Alanis :
So leave me alone
So leave me alone
So leave me alone
I'm busy breaking bones
Alanis :
I was born in 1974
in a breached feet-first way
my twin opened the door
my very first dose of chivalry
I was dawned princess potential potent
with gold star and matching impression
big between two doors
small and loved and proud and unthreatened
Ryan & Alanis :
So leave me alone
So leave me alone
So leave me alone
I'm busy breaking bones
Ryan :
I bet you were strong
when you should have been weak
like a dam that wanted to break
I wish I were the stones
your river learned to roam
in whispering gaze
Alanis :
You were told in a kind North Carolinian way
to slow down, back up, or be hated
thank god you did not
and thank god you did
an angel either way
Ryan & Alanis :
So leave us alone
So leave us alone
So leave us alone
We're busy being grown
Alanis :
November 5, 8:17 PM
Scorpio &
A gem
Ryan :
June 1st, 9:39 AM
Gemini &
A lullaby
*** Thanx a lot to
Dardo for this one ***
20/20
( Flavors Of Entanglement Japanese Bonus Track )
I would never have been in such a rush
I would never have tried to control
I would never have worn such fear lenses
I would never have held on so tightly
I would have kept my boundaries set
My loving no’s, my unwavering yes’s
Risked abandonment and stood by that
And thereby felt constant connect
This fountain of regret, this looking back with 20/20
Torturous hindsight if I knew then what I know now
This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding
This wouldn’t have happened if I knew then what I know now
I would have gone slower, pushed infrequent
Would not have rushed into such commitment
I would have shown restraint as my feet got wet
I would have baby-stepped into intimate
Oh this fountain of regret, this looking back with twenty/twenty
This torturous hindsight if I knew then what I know now
This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding
This wouldn’t have happened if I knew then what I know now
I would’ve known much more
Known that time was all we had for future depth to unfold
I would’ve had more faith at every step
I would’ve kept intact through the whole process
Oh this fountain of regret, this looking back with twenty/twenty
Torturous hindsight if I knew then what I know now
This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding
This wouldn’t have happened if I knew then what I know now
If I knew then what I know now
If I knew then what I know now
A Year Like This One
(Performed at the end of the Jagged Little Pill era)
After a year like this one
I'm surprised I do not hate your guts
And, After a year like this one
I'm suprised I still love music just as much
After a year like this one
I'm suprised I did not eat my arm
And, After a year like this one
I'm sorry if I'm not cordial to everyone
La la la la la ....
After a year like this one
I'm suprised I do not hate your guts
And, After a year like this one
I'm suprised I still love music just as much
After a year like this one
I'm suprised I did not eat my arm
And, After a year like this one
I'm sorry if I'm not cordial to everyone
La, la, la, la, la.....
After a year like this one
I'm supised I am convinced at all
And, After a year like this one
I do not roll my eyes at the cynical
And,After a year like this one
I can't help wonder how they've been
After a year like this one
I think I'll leave it all to my next-of-kin
La, la, la, la, la.....
After a year like this one
I'm suprised we're all not raving drunks and
After a year like this one
I want you to choose the restaurant
After a year like this one
I"ll need a good whole 16 months alone and
After a year like this one
I think I'll make the west coast beaches my new home
La, la, la, la, la.....
( Hands clean B-side )
We
watch movies of murder and we censor the breast
Give thanks for the murders of Chris Columbus
We kill our own and we vote for the men
The lesser of evils and us starring the role of victim
I
wonder how we change if we can in this land
I wonder how many mountains we'd move if we bent together
Us priveleged Americans
We pass our revisions onto the next generation
We kneel to the Gods of corporation
We eat when we're full and we hoard all the rest
With our hands on remotes we say "Yes, We're the best"
I
wonder what we change in this land, cause we can
Even with western centricity this rampant
Us ugly Americans
Tired are not my hands
But see strangers and enemies as part of me, is real.
For me this awakening Canadian
We teach our offspring for themselves, every man
We shrug shoulders and create yet another -ism
We dissuade our young from using their imagination
We avert our eyes from this our very own manifestation
I wonder what will change in this
land, cause we can
I wonder how many mouths we'd fill if we band together
Us awakening Americans
( Seal Cover )
In a church, by the face,
He talks about the people going under.
Only child know...
A man decides after seventy years
That what he goes there for, is to unlock the door
While those around him criticize and sleep
And through a fractal on a breaking wall
I see you my friend, and touch your face again
Miracles will happen as we dream
But we're never gonna survive, unless
We get a little crazy
No we're never gonna survive, unless
We are a little...
Crazy yellow people walking through my head
One of them's got a gun, to shoot the other one
And yet together they were friends at school
Ohh get it, oh get it, oh get it, oh get it no no no !
If all were there when we first took the pill
Then maybe, then maybe, then maybe, then maybe
Miracles will happen as we speak
But we're never gonna survive unless
We get a little crazy
No we're never gonna survive unless
We are a little... crazy
No no, never survive, unless we get a little bit...
In a sky full of people
Only some want to fly
Isn't that crazy
In a world full of people
Only some want to fly
Isn't that crazy, crazy
In a heaven of people
There's only some want to fly
Ain't that crazy
Oh babe, oh darling
In a world full of people
There's only some want to fly
Isn't that crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy
But we're never gonna survive unless, we get a little crazy
No we're never gonna to survive unless we are a little crazy
But we're never gonna survive unless, we get a little crazy
No we're never gonna to survive unless, we are a little crazy
No no, never survive unless we get a little bit...
And then you see things
The size of which you've never known before
They'll break it someday
Only child know
Them things
The size
Of which you've never known before
Someday, someway...
Death of Cinderella
( Live )
I'm wise and ambitious,
And angry and free,
And smart and available,
And sexy...
I'm soft and appealing,
And wearing pajamas,
And twisted and willing,
And crazy...
And this is the story of the death of Cinderella
She'd grow to be a maid if she couldn't find a fella
Who can use her
And it's all you could do not to throw her on the floor.
And thought-provoking,
And opinionated
Cultured and funny,
And experienced...
Fearless and tender,
And sweetly innocent,
Uninhibited,
Likes a good debate.
And this is the story of the death of Cinderella
She'd grow to be a maid if she couldn't find a fella
Who can use her
And it's all you could do not to tie her to the bed.
I could fall in love a million times before I die,
You could draw me a bubble bath,
We could walk into the sunset...
And this is the story of the death of Cinderella
She'd grow to be a maid if she couldn't find a fella
Who can use her
And it's all you could do not to throw her on the floor
And this is the story of the death of Cinderella
I'm gonna grow to be a maid and I'll never find a fella
Who can use me
And that's all you can do not to kick me in the ass.
Don't Drink the
Water
( With Dave Matthews Band )
(Dave)
Come out, come out, no use in hiding
Come now, come now, can you not see?
There's no place here, what were you expecting?
No room for both, just room for me
So you will lay your arms down
Yes I will call this home
Away, away you have been banished
Your land is gone and given me
And here I will spread my wings
Yes I will call this home
What's that you say?
You feel the right to remain?
Then stay and I will bury you
What's that you say?
Your father's spirit still lives in this place,
Well I will silence you
Here's the hitch, your horse is leaving,
Don't miss your boat, it's leaving now
And as you go I will spread my wings
Yes I will call this home
I have no time to justify to you
Fool you're blind, move aside for me
All I can say to you, my new neighbor
Is you must move on or I will bury you
[chanting]
Now as I rest my feet by this fire
Those hands once warmed here
But I have retired them
I can breathe my own air
And I can sleep more soundly
Upon these pour souls
I'll build heaven and call it home
'Cause you're all dead now.
(Alanis)
And I live with my justice
And I live with my greedy need
Oh I live with no mercy
And I live with my frenzied feeding
And I live with my hatred
And I live with my jealousy
Oh I live with the notion
That I don't need anyone but me
(Dave)
Don't drink the water
Don't drink the water
Blood in the water
Don't drink the water
Don't drink the water
Don't drink the water
There's blood in the water
Don't drink the water
Blood in the water
You'll all be dead
*** Thanx a lot to Magnus for this one ***
Fake
Plastic Trees
( Live - Radiohead Cover )
Her green plastic watering can
For her fake chinese rubber plant
In the fake plastic earth
That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plans
To get rid of itself.
It wears her out
It wears her out
It wears her out
It wears her out
She lives with a broken man,
A cracked polystyreneman
Who just crumbles and burns
He used to do surgery
For girls in the eighties
But gravity always wins.
And it wears him out
It wears him out
It wears him out
It wears...
She looks like the real thing.
She tastes like the real thing,
My fake plastic love
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run.
And it wears me out
It wears me out
It wears me out
It wears me out
If I could be who you wanted
If I could be who you wanted
All the time
All the time.
*** Thanx to Joe who corrected some mistakes ***
Fate Stay with
me
(Alanis' First single when she was 10 years old)
What did you think I'd be doing now
While you left meI was thinking aloud
Would there be no end to my sorrow
Will I make it through tomorrow
Fate Stay With Me Oh,
Please Fate Stay with me, and guide me along my way
There has been so many problems
So please stay, please, stay
Fate stay with me, will you help me on my way
Will you end my troubles
Will you please stay, please...
I wanted money and hope and
A dream to carry me forever
This is all the hope I got left
Help me to get it together, now
I can sing or act or dance but I still won't get far
Unless you help me please to be a big star
Oh,
Please Fate Stay with me, and guide me along my way
There has been so many problems
So please stay, please, stay
Fate stay with me, will you help me on my way
I don't want to be a queen, no,
Or a princess with all my jewels, oh
If you could guide me
And you could help me
But don't go too far, I just want to be a star
Oh,
Please Fate Stay with me, and guide me along my way
There has been so many problems
So please stay, please, stay
Fate stay with me, will you help me on my way
Yes guide me
Forver guide me
Will you stay with me and guide me along the way
If I succeed because of you, fate my friend
I'll be so happy
Find The
Right Man
You found the right man in the right place
Once in a while you meet him face to face
It was love at first sight
Honey you've gotta fight
For his love, for his love
He feels the same way, I think you know it
You can't be afraid to show it
When will this hidden emotion
Give you the notion
To make the first move, make the first move
You gotta get it straight
Oh dear don't wait
This might be your lucky day
Don't say that there's no way
Darling you just can't let him go
Deep down in your heart you can't feel it all
I'll be calling all there is
For his love, for his love
You know you can take his heart away
Just look straight in his eyes
And then you say
Hey can't you just see
We'll be great you and me
Oh yeah, oh yeah
You gotta get it straight
Oh dear don't wait
This might be your lucky day
Don't say that there's no way
You found the right man in the right place
Once in a while you meet him face to face
It was love at first sight
Honey you've gotta fight
For his love, for his love
It was love at first sight
Honey you've gotta fight
For his love, for his love (repeat 2X until end)
Gorgeous
( Live )
Testostarone in large amounts
Your Little sister just kick out of
God you can't shave your head
Come to the Show
the boys rock harder
Your mother lent you her slip
She lent you her bright red lipstick
And your shoes are hurting your back
But boy don't you look gorgeaus
You look gorgeous
You look gorgeous
You look gorgeous
How you look gorgeous
This is but an observation
You put a bullet in your foot
You make it hard for us bitches inconsequential in your back bends
And your taste in men leaves something to de desired
You love them to be aloof and self obsessed
They love you in your mini dress
You are looking gorgeous
You're looking gorgeous
You're looking gorgeous
How you look gorgeous
When your voice is raised above a certain level
I'm afraid you must go to the ladies room
I left your competence in curlers
You look gorgeous
You look gorgeous
You're looking gorgeous
How you look gorgeous
Happiness
is a Warm gun
( Live - Beatles Cover )
She's not a girl who misses much
She's well acquainted with the touch of the velvet hand
Like a lizard on a window pane
The man in the crowd with the multi-colored mirrors
On his hob-nailed boots
Lying with his eyes while his hands
Working over time
A soap impression of his wife which he ate
And donated to the Nation's Trust
I need a fix cause I'm going down
Down to the *itch that I left uptown
I need a fix cause I'm going down
Mother Superior jumped the gun
Mother Superior jumped the gun
Happiness is a warm gun
Happiness is a warm gun
When I hold you in my arms
And I feel my finger on your trigger
I know that nobody can do me no harm
Happiness is a warm gun, mama
Happiness is a warm gun
I don't know
( The weekend song )
Monday morning is not Monday morning 'till Taylor has his coffee
Friday night is not Friday night 'till Jessie leaves the room sweaty
Tuesday morning is not Tuesday morning 'till Nick has his talk with his son
Thursday night is not Thursday night 'till Chris has sex with his bass
Come on to the Weekend
'Cause the Weekend I'll get by
Hold off 'till the Weekend
'Cause there's too much time bein' merrily nice guys
Tuesday morning is Wednesday afternoon when you cry all night
Wednesday early we fall into what I'll Phil-a-del-ph-i-a
Thursday morning is not Thursday morning 'till one of us says
How's your life
How's your life?
Yeah how's your life
How's your life?
Come on to the weekend
'Cause the weekend I'll get by
Hold off 'till the weekend
'Cause there's too much time to think and not much time to cry
Hold off 'till the weekend
'Cause the weekend we'll be high
Hold off 'till the weekend
'Cause we may look tired, but we'll get by
What if there were no more mama's boys
What if no one shared their humble appearance
What there were no consequences
What if there were no more arguments
Well that'd be a shame
And that'd be impossible
And you would be bored
'Cause you wouldn't want it any other way
Hold on 'till the weekend
'Cause the weekend I'll get by
Hold off 'till the weekend
'Cause we may look scared, but we're really nice guys
Hold off 'till the weekend
'Cause the weekend I'll get high
Hold off 'till the weekend
'Cause we may look strange but we surely will get by
What if there were no more mama's boys
What if we all had no thinking together
Would that be a shame...
And that'd be impossible
'Cause you would be bored
'Cause you wouldn't want it any other way
It's a
Bitch to Grow Up
( Flavors Of Entanglement I-Tunes Exclusive )
It's been ten years of investment
It's been one foot in and one out
It's been four days of fodder shed (?)
And I feel snuffed out
It's been thirty three years of restraining
Of trying to control this tumult
How I did invest in such fantasy
But my nervous system has worn out
I feel done, I feel raked over coals
And all that remains is the case
That it's a bitch to grow up
I've repeated this dance at Nauseum
There's still something to learn that I've not
I'm told to see this as divine perfection
But my bones don't feel this perfection
I feel done, I feel raked over coals
And all that remains is the case
That it's a bitch to grow up
I've spent life hovering above bottom
Thinking I can't survive what's below
But I've known through the kicking and screaming
That there was no other direction to go
I feel done, I feel raked over coals
And all that remains is the case
That it's a bitch to grow up
Keep the radio
on
Can you relate to what it says
The lyrics are straight from the heart
The soul is expressed in the lyrics
The virtues and vices are released
Chorus:
Keep The Radio On,
This song means so much to me
Keep the Radio On,
The words live right through me
The lyrics are comforting
Like I expressed them my self
Keep The Radio on, the song speaks for itself.
Why Can't You Relate
To my way of thinking
Why don't you understand
All the things I am feeling
I am not a stranger to opinions
In fact i have my own
I am no stranger to delusions
Although you live through mine
Repeat Chorus
Keep The Radio On
Keep The Radio On
The words have their meaning
Keep The Radio On
Can't you feel what they are saying
Keep The Radio On
Repeat Chorus
King of
intimidation
( Live )
Spoken : The women of this
family seem to feel that they owe it to the men
of the family to look relaxed, rested, and attractive at dinnertime.
For you they live in a quiet monastery
For you they wear whatever you want them to as long as it is short
They count to ten when you tell them how to drive
And when they're afraid they let you speak for them
All hail the king of intimidation
Model of good Christian behavior
For you we wax, nostalgic and our legs
For you we chew our nails if we had any left buy fake ones to do it
We counted to 10 temporarily
And it was somethin' about how you talk down to me
All hail the king of intimidation
Model of good Christian behavior
The room of compromise is full, and apparently you don't want some,
There's only so much we can do to make you rest assured
I am single
I am weary
You're just jealous
You're just confused
You're just hungry
You're in sin now
You're not happy
You are petty
All hail the king of intimidation
Model of good Christian behavior
He knows not of what he has wrongly done
Forgive his ignorant behavior
You are tortured
You are captured
You are busted
We were silent
You were tested
You knew better
You are lonely
Was it worth it?
La,la,la
*** Thanx to Mlp &
Matthew & Jon who corrected some
mistakes ***
Let's do it
( The collection LP )
Birds do it, bees do it
Even educated fleas do it
Let's do it, let's fall in love
In spain, the best upper sets do it
Lithuanians and letts do it
Let's do it, let's fall in love
The dutch in old amsterdam do it
Not to mention the finns
Folks in siam do it
Think of siamese twins
Some argentines, without means, do it
People say, in boston even beans do it
Let's do it, let's fall in love
Romantic sponges, they say, do it
Oysters, down in oyster bay, do it
Let's do it, let's fall in love
Cold cape cod clams, against their wish, do it
Even lazy jellyfish do it
Let's do it, let's fall in love
Electric eels, i might add, do it
Though it shocks 'em, i know.
Why ask if shad do it
Waiter, bring me shad roe.
In shallow shoals, english soles do it
Goldfish, in the privacy of bowls, do it
Let's do it, let's fall in love
( Flavors Of Entanglement Deluxe Edition )
My house, my role
My friends, my man
My devotion to god
All amorphous, indefinite
Nothing's been clear
Nothing's been in
Nothing's felt true
And I’ve never had both feet in
Nothing's been long
Nothing's been yes
Nowhere's been home
And I'm ready to be limbo no more
My taste, my peers
My identity, my affiliation
All amorphous, indefinite
Nothing's been clear
Nothing's been in
Nothing's felt true
And I’ve never had both feet in
Nothing's been long
Nothing's been yes
Nowhere's been home
And I'm ready to be limbo no more
I sit with filled frames
And my books and my dogs at my feet
My friends by my side
My past in a heap
Thrown out most of my things
Only kept what I need to carve
Something consistent and notably me
Tattoo on my skin
My teachers in heart
My house is a home
Something at last I can feel a part of
Sense of myself
My purpose is clear
My roots in the ground
Something at last I can feel a part of
Something aligned
To finally commit
Somewhere I belong
‘Cause I'm ready to be limbo no more
My wisdom applied
A firm foundation
A vow to myself
‘Cause I'm ready to be limbo no more
London
( Live )
Boganvilia fall into the pool
The hard shelled bugs bite my forearm
My right index fingernail chewed to the quick
My cervix is a long scalene
My sprinklers go off at 6pm each day
And sometimes they spray unsuspecting visitors
My pimples are gooses all over my legs
My brow is furrowed and my vision is blurred
And how I do love London
And how I do love London
The birds make guttural sounds and protect me
My friends come to visit and love me a lot
I don't have the energy to fill this
i am lagged from the jet and the 12 hour flight
And how I do love London
And how I do love London
I am intriguied by the boys with the androdonus songs
Sometimes they rhyme sometimes they rhyme not
The steam will smell of eucalyptus in the shower
The hug will feel forced upon you inconsolable thing
And how I do love London
And how I do love London
Deep breaths will not make my brain stand still
To be loved and swallowed are single and depraved
I love speaking french to the taxi drivers
We slept and were cold on the train out of france
And how I do love London
And how I do love London
** Thanx to Moo who corrected some mistakes **
( Flavors Of Entanglement Deluxe Edition )
I've been most unwilling
To see this turmoil of mine
The thought of sitting with this
Has me paralyzed
With this prolonged exposure
To nearer and averted eyes
I feigned that I've been waiting
Such mileage for empathizing
Now I see the madness in me
Is brought out in the presence of you
Now I know the madness lives on
When you're not in the room (?)
Though I'd love you to blame you for all
I'd miss these moments of opportune
You've simply brought this madness to light
And I should thank you
Oh, thank you
Much thanks for this bird's eye view
Oh, thank you
For your most generous triggers
It's been all too easy
To cross my arms and roll my eyes
The thought of dropping all arms
Leaves me terrified
Now I see the madness in me
Is brought out in the presence of you
Now I know the madness lives on
When you're not in the room (?)
Though I'd love you to blame you for all
I'd miss these moments of opportune
You've simply brought this madness to light
And I should thank you
Oh, thank you
Much thanks for this bird's eye view
Oh, thank you
For your most generous triggers
I'd have to give up knowing
And give up being right
You inadvertent hero
You angel in disguise
Now I see the madness in me
Is brought out in the presence of you
Now I know the madness lives on
When you're not in the room (?)
Though I'd love you to blame you for all
I'd miss these moments of opportune
You've simply brought this madness to light
And I should thank you
Oh, thank you
Much thanks for this bird's eye view
Oh, thank you
For your most generous triggers
Movement I - Mercy
( Jonathan Elias's The Prayer Cycle )
We have slaughtered
In the garden of beauty
Digging graves instead of planting
Mercy for the crucified
A bitter justice
Begging eternity for love
We're nothing
We're everything
I am nothing
Yet I am everybody
We're nothing
And yet we are
Wisdom lights up life's road
I know you
Movement III - Hope
( Jonathan Elias's The Prayer Cycle )
Before my body dies
I pray
That the river I was born to
May again wash over me
By God's touch I pray
That I may move from this consecrated
Earth
Into the next season
A dark season
Beyond the dying religions that
Seduced us
My soul will surrender
And give in to grace
Movement VI - Innocence
( Jonathan Elias's The Prayer Cycle )
By moon we gather
For the ascension
Great sky shelter us
With your endless compassion
Last survivor
It is you who must pass
Into the light of the new world
Under a sky of innocence
We are now all dying
In a slow black rain
Was it a failure
Of man and angels
Was it a failure of love
From this human river
Too cruel for winter
Welcome to the gates
A rehearsal for the silence
Pray we do not enter
Under a sky of innocence
We bathe in the seduction
Beautiful
The light is unravelling now
We open our arms to it
It is close to ground zero
I am no one
Yet I am everyone
We are nothing, but we are all
When I am still, I am inspired
We are not yet born
Half sadness
But half choice
When I am still I can hear
You speak most clearly
Father can you help me
For the ocean is big
And my boat is small
Find the courage
Movement IX - Faith
( Jonathan Elias's The Prayer Cycle )
My unborn forgive me
I only wish I had the strength
To bring you into this world
More faithful
My Humps
( Black Eyes Peas parody )
I drive these scrubber crazy
I do it on the daily
They treat me really nicely
They buy me all these ice-ys
Dolce & Gabbana
Fendi and then Donna
Caring, they be sharin'
All their money got me wearin' fly
My love, my love, my love
You love my lady lumps
My hump, my hump, my hump, my humps
They got you
What you gon' do with all that junk
All that junk inside yo' trunk
I'ma get, get, get, get you drunk
Get you love drunk off my hump
What you gonna do with all that ass
All that ass inside them jeans
I'm gonna make, make, make you scream
Make you scream, make you scream
They say I'm really sexy
The boys they wanna sex me
They always standin' next to me
Always dancing next to me
Tryin' a feel my hump, hump
Lookin' at my lump, lump
You can look but you can't touch it
If you touch it I'ma start some drama
You don't want no drama,
No, no drama, no, no, no drama
My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump
My hump, my hump, my hump
My lovely lady lumps
My lovely lady lumps
She's got me spendin'
Spendin' all your money on me and spending time on me
She's got me spendin'
Spendin' all your money on me, up on me, uh oh me
What you gon' do with all that junk
All that junk inside that trunk
I'ma get, get, get, get you drunk
Get you love drunk off this hump
What you gonna do wit all that breast
All that breast inside that shirt
I'ma make, make, make, make you work
Make you work, work, make you work
*** Thanx a lot to Corqsan for this one ***
Norwegian
Wood
( The Beatles Cover )
I once had a girl, or should i say, she once had me.
She showed me her room, is not it good, norwegian wood?
She asked me to stay and she told me to sit anywhere,
So i looked around and i noticed there wasn't a chair.
I sat on a rug, biding my time, drinking her wine.
We talked until two and then she said, "it's time for bed".
She told me she worked in the morning and started to laugh.
I told her i didn't and crawled off to sleep in the bath.
And when i awoke i was alone, this bird had flown.
So i lit a fire, is not it good, norwegian wood.
( Flavors Of Entanglement Deluxe Edition )
Bring on the Tequila, oh
On fire on Tequila, oh
My friends and I meet hours before
We make some home made pizza
We do some funny bits back and forth
My knees buckle I laugh so hard
We might end three sheets to wind
And who knows where we'll wind up
All I know is there’s a car waiting
And we’ll figure that out after
I have to keep my eye on my old friend from high school
We’ve known each other for the longest time
She has trouble with her limits, so to speak
She can hoist a really good kick in the butt when she's excited
She doesn’t do it so much anymore
‘Cause we’re all on to her
Bring on the Tequila, oh
On fire on Tequila, oh
Hostess most on Tequila, oh
Bestest friends on Tequila, oh
Then there’s my other pretty friend from high school
The predator in me is put to shame by the predator in her
And now I’ve reeled it in
It’ll be interesting to see how much she’s done as well
Then there’s my friend from Chigago
God do I love all people from Chicago
All ready to light up the barbeque
And be harping on debauchery
Bring on the Tequila, oh
On fire on Tequila, oh
Hostess most on Tequila, oh
Bestest friends on Tequila, oh
Then there’s my Canadian friend
What a fabulous mom she’s become
She’s been tortured in this sense
for the last many of months for obvious reasons
She was like
"Hey where was this part of you when I wasn’t pregnant"
I laughed and did a shot in her honour
As I conversed with her belly
Bring on the Tequila, oh
On fire on Tequila, oh
Hostess most on Tequila, oh
Bestest friends on Tequila, oh
Then there’s my Cupid friend
She sure knows how to dress that one
She’s a wise and worldly girl
But you gotta watch that medication
My favourite beverage is taken to a whole other level on it
I’m not worried about it or I’ll coast around the room
While I trust she’ll temper
My brother came to visit me
And now he’s used to hanging with me and cracking up
But he had no idea about my built up tolerance
No idea about how manipulative I’ve become
I would surreptitiously put it in front of him without him asking
In a pretty little shot glass
His smirk and cackle would only egg me on
Bring on the Tequila, oh
On fire on Tequila, oh
Hostess most on Tequila, oh
Bestest friends on Tequila, oh
Orchid
( Flavors Of Entanglement Deluxe Edition )
Me, and my helmet
Such an unconventional kid
All intense and kinetic
At best tolerated from afar
Not yet arrested
And by that I mean betrothed
Though at start I am duly courted
I've just not been trusted with alters
I'm a sweet piece of work
Well intentioned yet disturbed
Wrongly labeled and underfed
Treated like a rose as an orchid
My friends as they weigh in
Get understandably protective
They have a hard time being objective
So inside we cancel each other out
I'm a sweet piece of work
Well intentioned and unloved
unlabeled and misunderstood
Treated like a rose as an orchid
You've brought water to me
Making sure my bloom rebounds
You know best of what my special care allows
So I've lived in my blind spot
Thought myself usual when I'm not
And your garden is a nice spot
As long as it is brave and where you are
For this sweet piece of work
High maintenance and deserted
I've been different and deserving
Treated like a rose as an orchid
Sweet piece of work
Overwhelmed unobserved
I've been bowed down to but so misread
Treated like a rose as an orchid
Pollyanna flower
(through you I see us)
Between a broken nose and a fake smile
Between piety and gun powder
Between fighting and fleeing the scene
Between the murder and the normalacy
Between aggression and oblivion
Between the brutal and realistically well behaved
Between the screaming and the pulling in the reins
Between tiptoeing and ambling
What am i to do with all this fire?
(I'd like to hate you but I could never hate you)
Why are you still with me in this red space?
(I'd like to slap you but I could never slap you)
Between violence and silently seething
Between my fist and my pollyanna flower
Between forgetting (or fuck you to) your face and it's alright
Between war and denial
(Twice)
Between flying vases and secretly weeping
Between loose cannons and ever down playing
Between the bruises and the nobly differing
Between bursting and boiling
What am I to do with all this burning?
(I'd like to hurt you but I could never hurt you)
Do I overwhelm you in this place?
(I'd like to kill you but I could never kill you)
Between violence and silently seething
Between my fist and my pollyanna flower
Between forgetting (or fuck you to) your face and it's alright
Between war and denial
(Twice)
What am i to do with all this fire?
Can you understand me in this place?
** Thanx a lot to Rafael for this one **
Pray For Peace
I pray for peace.
They require me to kick into high gear.
We may as well have our Ph.D.'s.
Might we compose
Was never taken into account.
I pray they let out or talk it out.
She would give me a wink across the room.
I would've made a really good lawyer.
I had a really good strategy
For putting things back on the wall of the world.
Thank God it was the goddamned wall.
I would have to hide all my valuables.
Who would calm my mother down?
Who would calm me down once I talked her through it?
My mother and I were the official peacemakers.
It was a full-time job.
I would send my mother directly to bed, yeah
Don't collect 200.
We'd talk about it till 5 A.M.
When I'd come visiting her 5 years later.
We would pray for peace.
It was most comfortable and familiar.
Question
( Unreleased tricky collaboration )
Alanis Morissette:
I must be two lips
I must be your sleep
I must be blinded
Keep it a question
Keep it a question
Keep it a question
I must be spoiled
I must be behind
I must be asleep
I must be fearful
Keep it a question
Love ain't a secret
Keep it a question
Keep it a question
I must be two lips
I must be your sleep
I must plan to forget
I must be suffering
Keep it a question
Letting nothing on
Let's keep it a question
Keep it a question
Love ain't a secret
Keep it a question
Let it stop within
Keep it a question
*** Thanx a lot to Elliott for this one ***
( from Dave Matthews Band's album:"Before these crowded streets")
Dave :
Spoon in spoon
Stirring my coffee
I thought of you
And turned to the gate
And on my way came
Up with the answers
I scratched my head
And the answers were gone
From hand to hand
Wrist to the elbow
Red blood sand
Could Dad be God
Crosses cross hung
Out like a wet rag
Forgive you why
You hung me out to dry
Maybe I'm crazy
But laughing out loud
Makes the pain pass by
And maybe you're a little crazy
But laughing out loud makes it all subside
Holding, I'm holding
I'm still falling
I'm still falling
Spoon in spoon
Stirring my coffee
I thought of this
And turned to the gate
But on my way
Crack
Lightning and thunder
I hid my head
And the storm slipped away
Well maybe I'm crazy
And laughing out loud
Makes it all pass by
And maybe you're a little crazy
And laughing out loud
Makes it all alright
Laughing out loud
Alanis :
From time to time
Minutes and hours
Some move ahead while
Some lag behind
It's like the balloon that
Rise and then vanish
This drop of hope
That falls from his eyes
Dave :
Spoon in spoon
Stirring my coffee
I think of this
And turn to go away
But as I walk
There're voices behind me saying
Sinners sin
Come now and play
Laughing out
loud
Come now and play
*** Thanx a lot to Kimsy for this one ***
( Dogma Soundtrack )
I am the harm that you inflict
I am your brilliance and frustration
I'm the nuclear bombs if they're to hit
I am your immaturity and your indignance
I am your misfits and your praises
I am your doubt and your conviction
I am your charity and your rape
I am your grasping and expectation
I see you averting your glances
I see you cheering on the war
I see you ignoring your children
And I love you still
And I love you still
I am your joy and your regret
I am your fury and your elation
I am your yearning and your sweat
I am your faithless and your religion
I see you altering history
I see you abusing the land
I see you and your selective amnesia
And I love you still
And I love you still
Haya...haya...haya...haya...
Background voices :
I see you adverting your glances I see you cheering on war
I see you ignoring your children And I love you still
And I love you still, I see you altering history
I see you abusing the land I see you and your selective amnesia
And I love you still and I love you still
I am your tragedy and your fortune
I am your crisis and delight
I am your profits and your prophets
I am your art I am your bytes
I am your death and your decisions
I am your passion and your plights
I am your sickness and convalescence
I am your weapons and your light
I see you holding your grudges
I see you gunning them down
I see you silencing your sisters
And I love you still
And I love you still
I see you lie to your country
I see you forcing them out
I see you blaming each other
And I love you still
And I love you still
Haya...haya...haya...haya...
Background voices :
I see you holding your grudges I see you gunning them down
I see you silencing your sisters And I love you still
And I love you still, I see you lie to your country
I see you forcing them out I see you blaming each other
And I love you still, and I love you still
** Thanx a lot to Rafael for this one **
Superstar
Wonderful Weirdos
(Demo - Made for Jagged Little Pill but not on the LP)
Sarah's only 10 and she's attracted to older men
And they seem to like her back
'Cause she's intelligent
Billy's a football star
And he drives around in his muscle car
But he really really wants to be a ballerina
And he wonders who am I?
Who am I?
And he wants to be a man
But he doesn't understand
It's alright to be what he wants
I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos
Can you hear me call tonight?
I know you're alone in your world
Full of fear though
But the more you run the harder it is to hide
Well, Jonny studies rockets
With his plastic protected pockets so his pens don’t leak out upon the floor
Where Jenny's rolling
And she's scared of growing
'Cause she is 5 feet taller than the girl next door
And she wonders who am I?
What the hell am I?
And she's got a lot to offer
But she doesn’t look like Cindy Crawford
And it makes her cry
I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos
Can you hear me call tonight?
I know you're alone in your world
Full of fear though
But the more you run the harder it is to hide
It's a total rejection of the system
It's the honest opinion for the very first time
It's a different position, of living
And its time that you made up your minds
I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos
You're not alone tonight
I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos
Can you hear me call tonight?
I know you're alone in your world
Full of fear though
But the more you run the harder it is to hide
I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos
Can you hear me call
Can you hear me call tonight?
I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos
( Hands clean B-side )
A
missile sent today
Killed only 3
The rest were saved
They're far enough away to not really feel the direct effect on me
They caught him today
Based ridiculously
On his race
They weren't sure
He even did it
But they needed a random face
All these symptoms symptoms are simpler cuz
I've had moments in my life when I've contributed by believing
We are separate
We are separate
Disconnected in this unity
He won today
Smug self-satisfaction
On his face
He blew the others
Out of the water
He said and was glad
They were disgraced
All these symptoms symptoms are simpler cuz
I've had moments in my life when I've contributed by believing
We are separate
We are separate
Disconnected in this unity
He stole what he could
He only had minutes before he'd be caught
He justified every penny taken by blaming the gap between the rich and rich not
All these symptoms symptoms are simpler cuz
I've had moments in my life when I've contributed by believing
We are separate
We are separate
Disconnected in this unity
Separate we are separate
Disconnected in this unity
The
Guy Who Leaves
( Flavors Of Entanglement Deluxe Edition )
Get up
Don't get up
I beg you to sit tight
Sweet girl
I'll be a ghost girl
Forget it, I am fine
If anything
A witnessing
Is all I needed that night
Until I get what I'm to get
He'll keep being compelled to flee
Until I out his false story
He'll keep playing the guy who leaves
Brother, oh brother
Solo you did bust out
All I knew was
You didn't invite me
So begin seeds of self-doubt
There is nothing
As harrowing
As how I translate facts (?)
Until I get what I'm to get
He'll keep being compelled to flee
Until I out his false story
He'll keep playing the guy who leaves
Baby, oh partner
How well you've played this part
Similar, oh, how familiar
Reluctant truth you impart
And how you served necessity
Repeat until she sees light
Until I get what I'm to get
He'll keep being compelled to flee
Until I out his false story
He'll keep playing the guy who leaves
There are worse things I could do
( Grease / Live at Tinley Park)
There are worse things I could do, than go with a boy or two
Even though the neighborhood thinks I'm trashy and no good
I suppose it could be true, but there are worse things I could do
I could flirt with all the guys, smile at them and bat my eyes
Press against them when we dance, make them think they stand a chance
Then refuse to see it through, that's a thing I'd never do
I could stay home every night, wait around for Mr. Right
Take cold showers every day, and throw my life away
On a dream that won't come true
I could hurt someone like me, out of spite and jealously
I don't steal and I don't lie, but I can feel and I can cry
A fact I'll bet you never knew
But to cry in front of you, that's the worst thing I could do
Unsent (
Demo )
Dear matthew I like you a lot I realize you're in a relationship with someone
right now and
I respect that I would like you to know that if you're ever single in the future
And you want to come visit me in california I would be open to spending time
with you
And finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song
Dear eric I liked you too much I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to
me
And think solely about themselves and you were plenty self-destructive for my
taste at the time
I used to say the more tragic the better the truth is whenever I think of the
early 90's your face
Comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday
Dear terry I love you muchly you've been nothing but open hearted and
emotionally available
And supportive and nurturing and consummately there for me I kept drawing you in
And pushing you away I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your
couch
And cry in front of you for the first time you were the best platform from which
to jump
Beyond myself what was wrong with me
Dear marc you rocked my world you had a charismatic way about you with the women
And you got me seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't let me get
away
With kicking my own ass but I could never really feel relaxed and looked out for
around
You though and that stopped us from going any further than we did and it's kinda
too bad
Because we could've had much more fun
Dear terrance you were an adventure besides being a few decades older than I was
You used to write the most poetic loveletters and I still have them you were in
And out of several marriages and you liked them young and naive so you could
have
The power and the dramas to feel fear I wonder what your wife thought of all of
this
Dear christian we learned so much I realize we won't be able to talk for some
time
And I understand that as I do you the long distance thing was the hardest and we
did
As well as we could we were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives
I will always
Have your back and be curious about you about your career about your whereabouts
Dear taylor I missed you a lot there was a period of time when I was too mad to
even bring up
Your name and it killed me to hear you discount the time we spent together I
knew all along
That we had different tastes in moderations and we couldn't hang out forever and
while it lasted
It was hilarious
( There are different versions of
this song.
The words in brackets [ ] are the words as she sings them in the other version )
Intensate [entertain] me for the tenth hour in the row again
Anesthetize me with your gossip and many random anecdotes
Fill every hour with act timid to your ear candy
Drop me off at intersections in any city metropolitan
And keep me in this state
And keep me purgatorying
And sing [rock] me back to sleep
This is far more than I have bargained for
Start every week with a break-neck urgent design
And end every speedday with my briefcase representing free time
Spending my fruits, my purchases become my lifeline
Please give my love to my family i'll doubtfully be home at christmas time
Please leave me in this state
Please keep me purgatorying
I'll be damned if I'm to wake
This is far more than I'm equipped for
I've held you up like a dear
As if [like] you're the sole owner of wings
This unrequited tunnel of vision
And I wonder why i've not been writing
Please keep me in this state
Please keep me purgatorying
I'll be damned if I'm to wake
This love is far more than I have bargained for
I'll be damned if I'm to wake
This is far more than I'm equipped for
*** Thanx a lot to Sylvy for this one
***
Wunderkind
( From The film The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and The
Wardrobe )
Oh perilous place
Walk backwards toward you
Blink disbelieving eyes chilled to the bone
Most visibly brave
No apprehended bloom
First to take this foot to virgin snow
I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind oh
I live the envelope pushed far enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne
Destined to serve
Destined to roam
Oh ominous place
Spellbound and un-childproofed
My least favorite chill to bear alone
Compatriots in place
They’d cringe if I told you
Our best back pocket secret: our bond full blown
I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind oh
I am a pioneer naïve enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne
Destined to seek
Destined to know
Most beautiful place
Reborn and blown off roof
My view: about face weather, great will be done
I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind oh
I am a groundbreaker naïve enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne
I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind oh
I am a joan of arc and smart enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne
Destined to reign, destined to roam
Destined to reign….destined to roam…
*** Thanx a lot to Corqsan for this one ***
