Azure Ray

Sleep

Fill these spaces up with days
In my room you can go you can stay
I can't sleep i can't speak to you
Now these years locked in my drawer
I'll open to see just to be sure
I can't sleep i can't speak to you
And so i'm reaching out for the one
And so i've learned the meaning of the sun
And all this like a message comes to shift my point of view
I'm watching through my own light
As it tints the shade of you
Hold my wine hold it in
Nobody's lost but nobody wins

Displaced

It's just a simple line
I can still hear it all of the time
If i can just hold on tonight
I know that nothing
Nothing survives
Nothing survives
I think i'm turned around
I'm looking up
Not looking down
And when i'm standing still
Watching you run
Watching you fall
Fall into me

Am i making something worthwhile out of this place
Am i making something worthwhile out of this chase
I am displaced
I am displaced

And she's my friend of all friends
She's still here when everyone's gone
She doesn't have to say a thing
We'll just keep laughing all night long
All night long

Am i making something worthwhile out of this place
Am i making something worthwhile out of this chase
I am displaced
I am displaced

It's just a simple line
I can still hear it all of the time
If i can just hold on tonight
I know that no one
No one survives
No one survives.

Don't make a sound

You could go anywhere anytime and find someone
But how will you know if he's kind
The sun is out but happiness
Only reminds you of the people you hurt
Mistakes that you made when you were down
And where are you now
You're sweeping up these sorry streets
And i knew somehow when you looked up and over me
That you could look up these words
But you still won't understand
They mean nothing to you
So write them in the sand
And watch the water wash them away

You could sit on your front porch
And watch the wasps dive down
You could go out every night
And force cheap beer down
You could go all day
And not make a sound

Another week

I wake up each morning
Go to work at eight
Come home for dinner
Time to celebrate
So i round up my friends
We made it through another week
We may not have much
But we've got what we need
So we go all night
Until i see his face
Then the party's over
This drink has no taste
He makes me lonely
When he comes around
I tried for years to beat this one down
I've got all my friends
Couldn't ask for more
But he makes me lonely
When he knocks on my door

Rise

Today i'll crawl out of bed
I can't stand your shadow is too heavy to lift
Maybe we'll go for a ride
You said you'd take me nowhere
I said that suits me just fine
I know you've always been near
Whispering secrets i know i'm not supposed to hear
Hold your heart with two hands
Give it to me only to disappear
Look how low i've sunk
Don't ask me to rise
I'll only lose you when i'm high
All alone in the dark
Love survives only when we are apart
Your voice still sounds in my ears
Soft explosions that blossom with the beat of my heart

4th of july

We met on that wednesday night
I was down but you were so bright
I remember that wednesday night so well
We played guitar all those afternoons
Heard records on the floor of your room
I knew that i would fall in love with you
When you told me my surprise
I looked and asked you why did you tell me now
We were sitting in the chair
You whispered in my ear
Let's go home now
I'm thinking of the 4th of july
Holding hands looking up at the sky
I remember the 4th of july so well

I know that you're always with me
I feel the strength you're giving me
I know this love will never die

Safe & sound

With every word i live again
Through the eyes of another
We'll meet at night wet from the rain
And surprise each other
With how we take away the pain
Could you be the one to find me safe and sound
Love is how it's lost not how it's found
I don't know those eyes
But i see beauty there always
I know it's wrong to love you from afar
But it's a craze
You recognize my pain
Could you be the one to find me safe and sound

Fever

Fever i know you've come to take my love
Go away
Fever i know your face just like a dove
Fly away
Fever turn the lights out
Take a different road
Let us be
Fever i know you've come to take my love
Go away
Fever i know in god i shouldn't trust
He's so far away
Fever turn the lights out
Take a different road
Let us be
Fever take a different route
Travel a different road
Let us be
Fever i know you've come to take my love
Go away fly away go away

For no one

We're the same
We're five years old
Still trying to change this mold
In the open air i'm cold
No purpose no reasons told
And while i'm waiting for something to say
I'm here in vain
I picked up this broken key
I'll love no one and let no one love me
I'll wait for morning before opened eyes
No one's crying not yet realized
And in the meantime i have nothing to say
I'm here in vain

How will you survive

And the angels had watched over you
As you crossed over the bridge
And your mother how she wept for you
On the day you turned your heart
And when your blood is gone how will you survive
And your dreams they don't stay in your mind
They are hiding in the night
And you think that this will be alright
Because the lord he was here at one time
But when your blood is gone
How will you survive

November EP

November

So i'm waiting for this test to end
So these lighter days can soon begin
I'll be alone by maybe more carefree
Like a kite that floats so effortlessly
I was afraid to be alone
Now im scared thats how id like to be
All the faces none the same
How can there be so many personalities
So many lifeless empty hands
So many hearts in great demand
And now my sorrow seems to far away
Until i'm taken by these bolts of pain
But i turn them off and tuck them away till these rainy days that make them stay
And then i'll cry so hard to these sad songs
And the words still ring, once here now gone
And they echo through my head everyday
And i dont think they'll ever go away
Just like tihnking of your childhood home
But we cant go back were on our own
Oh,
But i'm about to give this one more shot
And find it in myself
Ill find it in myself
So were speeding towards that time of year
To the day that marks your not here
And i think i'll want to be alone
So please understand that i dont answer the phone
I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls
Untill i can see nothing at all
Only particles some fast some slow
All i can see is all i know
Ohh..
But i'm about to give this one more shot
And find it in myself
I'll find it in myself

For the sake of the song

Why does she sing these sad songs for me, i'm not the one
To tenderly bring her soft sympathy i've just begun
To see my way clear it's plain, if i stop i will fall
I can lay down a tear for her pain, a tear and that's all.

What does she want me to do?
She says that she that knows moments are rare
I suppose that it's true
And on she goes to say i don't care when she knows that i do.

Well, maybe she just has to sing, for the sake of the song
And who do i think that i am to decide that she's wrong.

She'd like to think i was cruel,
She knows that's a lie for i would be
No more than a tool
If i allowed her to cry all over me.

Oh my sorrow is real even though i can't change my plans
If she could see how i feel then i know she'd understand

Does she actually think i'm to blame?
Does she really believe that some word of mine could relieve all her pain?
Can't she see that she grieves just because she's been blindly deceived
By her shame?

Well, maybe she just has to sing, for the sake of the song
And who do i think that i am to decide that she's wrong.

I know nothings what it seems, maybe one day she'll start to realize
That if she abandons her dreams then all the words she can say are only lies
When will she see that the gain is only to lose?
All that she offers me are her chains, and i got to refuse.

But it's only to herself that she's lied
She likes to pretend it's something that she should defend, with her pride
And i don't intend to stand here and be the friend from whom she must hide.

Well, maybe she just has to sing, for the sake of the song
And who do i think that i am to decide that she's wrong.
Well, maybe she just has to sing, for the sake of the song

No signs of pain

Standing in front of you
They fade into the wall
And leave behind nothing
Nothing at all

I know i don't understand how they forget
How some will just pass us by
And take what they can get
I know i don't understand how weightless they must be
Without feeling
Without feeling
Without feeling

Grasping with my fingernails
As they tear through your skin
Leaving no signs of pain
No wounds to mend

I know i don't understand how they forget
How some will just pass us by
And take whay they can get
I know i don't understand how weightless they must be
Without feeling
Without feeling
Without feeling

I know i don't understand how they forget
How some will just pass us by
And take whay they can get
I know i don't understand how weightless they must be
Without feeling
Without feeling

Just a faint line

I called you on the phone
I said i was confused and in a daze
You said this uncertainty one day i would crave
So i wrote down exactly how i wanna live
And now it's a promise i'll never give

And it's a faint line
I'll trace to recreate
A semblance of love
Of some stability

It's just a faint line
I'll trace to recreate
A semblance of love
Of some stability

It's just a faint line
I'll trace to recreate
A semblance of love
Of some stability

It's just a faint line
I'll trace to recreate

I will do these things

I will take your childhood dreams
And turn them into to beautiful film
I will take your most important things
Cast them gold fill a mueseum

So your heart doesn't know where mine's been
I'll never let your heart go where mine's been

I will kiss away every tear
They'll disappear in my mouth
And i will believe in all your fears
You let them in, i'll let them out
And put them in their place, my love

So your heart doesn't know where mine's been
I'll never let your heart go where mine's been

I'll never let your heart go where mine's been

Other than this world

Somethings wrong you say
I looked into those eyes a hundered times a day
Those deep blue wells so vague
Elusive as christ until the day
The secrets spilled into my room
Down the phone line into view
I've waited all my life to know

Why our light is gone
Our white light that's home
Maybe love and peace are waiting for us
Somewhere other than this world
At least we pray

La la la la la...

I'll write you and in my dreams
I'll lay on your chest to muffle your screams
And all the love i see i'll hold it close to me
In hopes that one day our secrets will be free

But now our light is gone
Our white light that's home
Maybe love and peace are waiting for us
Somewhere other than this world
So we pray

La la la la la...

Burn & shiver

Favorite cities

So it's grey, well so are my favorite cities
And we have, we have all the time in the world here
We'll just stay tucked in the shade and our eyes they can't be blinded
We'll just stay tucked in the shade
So it's grey, well so are my favorite cities
And the sky on such a memorable night
And we have, we have all the time in the world here
That's a lie, that's a lie...

The new year

We pried open my window
Let the summer fush in
And we laughed with the new air
Now i lay and watch the green leaves
Dance and whisper sweet breath
A promise of a new year
On this day, we were born into the new year
And after the winter broke
We held hands and we ran
And we agreed that it had been a long one

Seven days

They're seven days below us
That keep me hovered above the ground
And nights just blend into the morning
Definition is the first to go down
If i were to stay here between us
I might forget where i'm bound
So i can't stay in between us
I guess i'll walk away
And here to read the future
But forced to breathe out the past
And too many conversations
To uncover what was purposefully lost
Ah
Ahh..
And we all look so desperate
Showing the guidance that we lack
And we used to be so wistful
I guess we feel it's safer holding back
If i were to stay here between us
I might forget where i'm bound
So i can't stay in between us
I guess i'll walk away

*** Thanx a lot to Ray who corrected a mistake ***

Home

Just an hour and we'll be home
With my family that i chose
You're my family
And on the pavement still gripping the phone
You came and wrapped your arms around my soul
And we were shaking and you're so much a part of me
And so this is why i'm here
When we called you
You came so fast
And sat beside me while hours and days past
I'll always thank you for that
And there you were
With your heart made of gold
So strong, the only thing holding us up
And we knew you would always be so close
And so this is why i'm here
And then there was you
You always made us laugh
And you would help us to find the right path
And there is no one as full of life
And so this is why i'm here

How you remember

And you tread on the water
When you know you can touch the bottom now
It's the southern way, said your mother,
'Stay in shallow, shallow water
Don't touch the ground'
But then a slithering, sliding form
Catches you before you reach the shore
And as he strikes, full of venom
You reach out towards the trouble
You've got him now, but how?
And you thrust him to the sky
Arms raised high, you make a y
There is no fear, there is no pain inside
As you twist and write
This is how you remember yourself
Arms raised high, needing no help
And ou know you can't keep this steady pose
You must release him somehow
But as you loosen your hold
The fight you felt, it is old
It's over now
His body, lifeless and cold
You throw him down
And you raise your arms up to the sky
Raised high, you make a y
There is no fear, there is no pain inside
As the sun still shines on these drying lines
This is how you remember yourself
Arms raised to heaven, needing no help

The trees keep growing

I never expected you to love me
The way i loved you
To have you near
Was all
I wanted
Just to have you near
It's funny how you can forget there's a world outside yourself
Where the trees keep growing and the cars keep moving
Without you there
Land it's funny how you can forget there's a world outside yourself
Where the one who loves you keeps on living
Without you there

A thousand years

I'm saving all i'm not giving
But it's overflowing, evaporating in the air
As i'm walking, i know i'm not breathing, i'm not breathing only air
It's filled with words once spoken by people everywhere
And i can hear all the whispers that have lived a thousand years
It just took me being open for them to reach my eager ears
Now they've reached my eager ears
And i hope i'll be ready
When my light, when my life divides

While i'm still young

With the brushing of our shoulders
I lived a life with you
We had a son or daughter who had my eyes
And your laughter echoed after you
All of this in a brief stare
A feleeting glimpse of happiness shared
That made our bodies burn and shiver
As we passed each other unaware
I am not to think of your face, of your name
For when i do, you are there
Lying next to another
I can only wonder
Lesse mon cour vous abondonne
Depuis je suis encore jeune

Your weak hands

You held my hand
Led me to the water
You pushed me in
I went under
They were your firm hands
That made me falter
You held my hand
Led me to the altar
You wept for me
Lord, absolve her
They were your weak hands
That made me stronger
You held my hand
Led me homeward
I looked for you
You were nowhere
Holding tight my hand
Was my own

We exchanged words

We exchanged words
Through smoke-filled mouths
And then we found our bodies
Speaking loud
And our hearts pressed against the flesh
Trading stories
Of love's pain
Doubt
And rivaling insecurities
When did we learn to speak without words?
And in tongues?
Maybe we should just stop here

Raining in athens

Still,
I think of you, baby
And how i grew old with you then
And this summer, you'll call-maybe
And act as if we were old friends
You'd say, 'how are you, baby'
I'd say, 'it's raining in athens'
And to this day
I nurse the fever
That spoiled my poor heart
And i've mastered the art of dealing
Slipping away without falling apart
So when this summer, you call-maybe
And ask how
I've been
I can be honest and answer plainly
'Since november, it's been raining'

Rest your eyes

You said to write you a song
So here, this is for you
Now as you toss through those lonely nights
Just know there is someone thinking of you
Everyone is waiting for the timing to be right
And we hope it's coming soon
So just rest your eyes and then...
You'll be in love again
We talked and the moon was bright
Your words were glowing as they drifted out of sight
But now the change of the seasons sets in and nothing, nothing feels just right
We fear these nights and then we compromise
Yeah, but morning always comes
So just rest your eyes and then... You'll be in love again

Hold on love

The devil's feet

When i was a child a story was told
About the devil and a girl oh so bold
He offered her riches, a fortune of gold
And lovers abound
But she lifted her soul
She lifted her soul clean oh clean
And like the story was told
On a dark country road
The same man appeared to me
But i reached
I reached
Through the rain to the devil's feet
Now twenty years later to the place i return
Where i scorned the angels for a passion that burned
There set in the tree a knot twisted and turned
The face of a creature hell bound
So long ago could my mind have played jokes on me
As darkness sets in unavoidable sin
The truth i try not to believe
That i reached i reached
Through the rain to the devil's feet

New resolution

Follow blind
Heavy eyes hold position
You were right on time
It was a lucky prediction
Move on move on
It's like the clock is pacing
The break of dawn and our hearts are racing
Move on move on
No there's nothing changing
Don't undermine
My new resolution
Just to find
A different light a new direction
Move on move on
Now the records skipping
I won't forget i won't forget the way you said
Move on move on
There's no point in waiting

We are mice

It's all in the eyes
The reckless way we dream to die
Our past is our future
The present lies
Somewhere between our hearts and minds
For those with no future
We'll touch hands on the street
Smile and keep moving on towards the heat
So keep this a secret our lot in life
They are elephants we are mice
We'll walk this earth somnambulant kin
With broken hearts that cannot mend
Losers first and second men
We'll do our best to blend in
You could reach out for my hand and i yours
Deliver water to soothe the burn
We'll drink our tears and thirst for more
It's our lot in life
They are elephants we are mice
So keep this a secret
Keep this a secret
We are mice

Look to me

Lay your head in my lap
Let the sound of my laught comfort you now here in the cold
Your face gets wet as the drink slips from my hand
The faster i drive the harder i cry don't worry i'll get us there
And i look down at you
You look up at me
We're a real fucked up family
We make it home this place is a mess
The smell of cologne mixed with all that we own
Not much i must confess
I hold your hand as you slip from me
As i watch your breath i say to myself one day this will all end
And i look at you
You look at me
We're a real fucked up family
All night i feel it inside
But i know you're right as i begin to pack
Without raising your eyes i hear you sigh oh you'll be back
Because i look to you and you look to me
We're a real fucked up family

The drinks we drank last night

Riding on these waves
Holding on to what you say
Everything will be okay it will work out one way
But i've drifted way too far my arms my legs have grown too tired
And could you be inspired now i'm just tired
And on a swing you push me hard
So i'll come back to where you are
And you know i'm never far no decisions nothing hard
And i knew that it would ring tonight i'll take the bus or the next flight
I won't give up on what feels right
If you see these tears fill in my eyes
It's just the wind that makes me cry
If you could feel this pain inside
It's from the drinks we drank last night
It's from the drinks we drank last night
The shadow of our past projects on clouds of dust and gas
The ones where my eyes will rest a silhouette of loneliness
If you see these tears fill in my eyes
It's just the wind that makes me cry
If you could feel this pain inside
It's from the drinks we drank last night
It's from the drinks we drank last night

Across the ocean

Now i've travelled across the ocean
With the same shoes just longer hair
I still carry that picture in my wallet
From the photo booth yeah it's still there
Just give me some kind of sign
Is this the right place
Or the right time
Now i've landed in the midwest
Where you lived so long ago
Remember i was always freezing
And now i'm covered up in snow
Please give me some kind of sign
Is this the right place
Or the right time

If you fall

Let's talk and we'll fill the air with imagery that lasts forever
So this is love that's a lovely thought
You have to care for it to keep it together
If you fall will you get up
You're stuck in a dream will you wake up
And if you fell in love will you hold on to it
And if it's cold will you stay warm
You drift too far will you swim towards the shore
And if you fell in love will you hold on to it
Let's sing and we'll fill the air with melodies that blend together
You speak so sweet with words so delicate
A glass i hope will never shatter
If you fall will you get up
You're stuck in a dream will you wake up
And if you fell in love will you hold on to it
And if it's cold will you stay warm
You drift too far will you swim towards the shore
And if you fell in love will you hold on to it

Sea of doubts

I told them all the ones i love
I'm leaving and i may not return
See lately i've been overcome
A feeling i fear has just begun
The pain i feel deep inside
That haunts us all that we will die
Never really knowing how it feels
To be alive
Through mountains and over seas
Through misery and disease
A spectator i played my part
But nothing could move this heart
Until i held the boys hand
The little one spoke like a man
He showed me death and said
This is how you know you're alive
A kingfisher in flight
You'll rise above the sea of doubts
Into a world full of clouds
Alive

Dragonfly

Immovable tower come crashing down
An uncertain hour in this little town
Will you step to the edge
Move on in the dark
Let a new man have your old heart
You could spend your whole life putting blocks back in place
With each trebling hand covering up the face
That seeks high places
Greedy dragonfly
So show a new man your old smile
Indomitable portrait that hangs in your mind
Waiting to be unveiled in your darkest time
So step to the edge
Move on in the dark
Let a new man have your old heart
Let a new man have your old heart

Nothing like a song

You didn't say the words i would have said
You couldn't help the doubt that filled your head
It's just an ordinary try
We learn to live we live to die
Just accept and don't ask why
My lips the form a crooked smile
Giving a sign of no reply
And when you wake up freezing in a room dark and empty
Well, just keep singing along
I'm not what you write in your books you know i'm nothing like a song
And will you answer me i already know
I asked you to answer but i already know
And can you come back home you already know
You don't ask because you already know
It's an unfamiliar song
You said you'd like to sing along
But you couldn't change the key
I can't sing it doesn't suit me
When i wake up freezing but know half believing
It was this i feared
Because it's not just the words that you whispered in my ear
And will you answer me i already know
I asked you to answer but i already know
And can you come back home you already know
You don't ask because you already know
Will you come back home

These white lights will bend to make blue

Drive away
Just get on the interstate
And slip through this closing gate
Pulled into this cheap hotel
I called just to wish you well
You said don't let love break you down
Well just show me how and let me never be broken
Tomorrow a new point of view
These white lights will bend to make blue
Now this can all look new to you
Are you still living there
Walking the streets with your hollow stare
You say there's loneliness everywhere
So we have nothing to loose
The music plays all day long
And sorrow looks beautiful
And lovers seem mystical
Tomorrow a new point of view
These bright lights will bend to make blue
Now this can all look new to you

Hold on love

Hold on love
Even when i cry all night
Even when i say i don't love you
Just hold on love
So my head gets a little cloudy
And the drink goes straight to my heart
The the words come like a runaway train
In the dark
Just hold on love
Even when i scream and fight
Even when i swear i don't love you
Just hold on tight
And when the darkness falls over
Like a storm cloud in my head
Something inside says it's easier
To push you away but stay and
Hold on love
Even when i cry all night
Even when i swear i don't love you
Just hold on love
Just hold on love
Just hold on love

Non Albums Tracks

Beautiful things can come from the dark

( Saddle Creek 50 compilation CD - 2002 )

Someone else's boy
You’ve had it so hard
Will you grow up to be you
Or a sum of your parts
Just hanging in the air
Someone else’s boy
Tell me your convoluted stories
Through your half-rotten mouth
I will decipher them
To tell the world of your heart
How beautiful things can come
From the dark

Oh, boy...

Someone else's boy
I have seen your face
Light in the stars
It was then I knew
That your heart was pure
That it had not yet been destroyed

Oh, no...

Someone else's boy
I have hope for you
That you will keep your love for the world
Even though it beats you down
Every day
For the rest of your stay

Oh boy...

If you could sweep up the pieces
And watch them swirl
You could even find love in the arms
Of someone else’s girl

Someone else's boy
Though your life has been short
You’ve seen more pain
Than most of us know
If you make it through this
Vacuum up the mess
Smile to yourself lying
On your nice new clean floor

*** Thanx a lot to Laura for this one ***

Landing
 
( Moby featuring vocals by Azure Ray - 18 B-sides LP & XxX Ost )

Thick black soul
Moving slow, moving close to you
This life I don't know
It seems kinda sick to me
Hold each other tight
Walking through to my destiny
This glitter in my eye
Catches light, catches sympathy
This glitter in my eye
Catches light, catches sympathy

Your lips are moving but I can't hear what you say
Stars are falling but you still feel the same way

This shield
What is real
Is believing

*** Thanx a lot to Billy for this one ***

Lucky Sevens

(from The Amos House Collection, volume III)

Before I hit, hit the floor
I'll vow to drink even more
To cool my blood, make it mud
(I'm) moving thick and slow
So my head and heart, they don't know
They once had a past together
Oh this life will always pin you down
And I know I'm losing at my own pace
With my beer (?) okay, lucky sevens
Oooohhh....
Drink me.

*** Thanx a lot to Rebecca for this one ***

The great escape
 
( Moby featuring vocals by Azure Ray - 18 LP )

I'll use a lock that has no key
Bind you with chains
That no one else can see

Let the water creep over your face
I'll send it in waves
Just to watch you perform the great escape

How long can you hold your breath
While you hold mine again and wait
Just to watch you perform the great escape

I'll pull your arms tight behind your back
Use myself as weight
And wonder while you fade

How long can you hold your breath
While you hold mine again and wait
Just to watch you perform the great escape

*** Thanx a lot to Billy for this one ***

The Love of Two

( The Drinks We Drank Last Night EP )

So you choose the one whose
Body you want to feel loose
It's shape beneath your hands
And then daydreams of the future
Become peaceful nights of slumber
Waking only
To pull each other closer

And when the sky darkens
We won't be afraid
And when the wind ascends
With all that we've made

To each other we'll hold
Eyes closed tight
While all that we've made is swirling
And smashing through the night

With all else gone
We step back and smile
And watch our eyes
In each other's eyes

Standing where our home once stood
A Nebraska sun
Showing life the love of two

*** Thanx a lot to Rebecca for this one ***

Untitled ( Live )

(live at the 40 Watt Club in Athens, Ga; 4/19/01)

It was me who called and hung up-
But you already knew, like you always do.
Just like I know you’re just happy it’s over now;
Well I guess I am too
I just wish we could pass on the street
And meet again-for the first time-
But this time as friends.

And I know how you hate to hear me cry,
And that’s why
I don’t come around anymore.
I still believe in
The greatness of life;
There’s nothing I would change-
Except this thing:
We would pass on the street
And meet again for the first time
This time as friends.
And we would say everything
We said then- but this time,
We’d just stay friends.

*** Thanx a lot to Rebecca for this one ***